it's the finalllll countdownnnnn.

at mama coffee doing my normal contemplation. 

it's getting harder and harder to leave prague. i don't want to. can i change my ticket please? everyday i have to say goodbye to different students and i don't like it. i haven't cried yet--- just welled up a bit. and now i meet a great girl named lauren (she is going to be taking over my classes)and i might have to do long distance with her cause we hit it off so well... sucks. i don't like this at all! and emily, too. you in?  please make sure that when you move back to florida we will meet at busch gardens or something of the sort. just when i care enough to actually go out with girls for girl time... i have to leave. just my luck. i'm so picky about friends.  it takes a long time to settle into a new culture. really, and i wish i had more time here to just... be. without all the bullshit of a job and visa involved.

ugh. i am really sigh'ing here. i was so happy when we bought our tickets back in february to come home. now the time is here... only 9 days away and i'm not thrilled like i thought i'd be.

what i am thrilled about? 2 more classes to teach and then my mom arrives around noon on thursday! so so so excited. we are going to have so much fun!

mama coffee

ethiopian coffee, banana bread, and "baba" bread.

things are so weird lately. like i mentioned in my last post, i'm incredibly sad about leaving. i taught one of my students today what "bittersweet" meant and used it as an example for leaving prague. i think back to march when i found out i was accepted into the oxford tefl program--- i remember how amazing it felt to make the final decision to move to europe. we had no idea how long we'd be here for. and matt and i were still so new to eachother... yet we made the decision together that we would do it and make it and the decision we made has never given us any feeling of regret. swish. :)

at the moment i am sitting in a cafe called mama coffee. they have 3 different locations in prague and we've never been to this one. it's pretty close to where we live, and it's absolutely adorable inside. there are two floors and they serve sweets and coffees and light meals. i am in awe and kind of disappointed we came here so late in the game.

ugh. that's the problem now. i keep finding places i want to come back to and realize i am going to be gone from here in a matter of weeks. it's upsetting and really getting to me. i loved that feeling in march when i couldn't believe that we were going to be living in europe! now i can't believe i'll be living in florida, again.  i don't want to feel this way. i want to be excited, but it's hard coming back to your stomping grounds with no place to really call "home", yet. i guess i should stop dwelling. i really am trying to have a fantastic last few weeks. really. and i know that having my mom here during our last week will make it insanely good. i can't wait to go to all our favorite restaurants and try out new ones. it's going to be great.

now i may be looking at getting fired from my job. we leave for prague in 2 days! and my work is giving me a really hard time for missing ONE lesson this monday. i literally have given plenty of notice and tried to reschedule it and apparently that is proving to be impossible. i am getting emails upon emails about how i need to have a serious illness to cancel a lesson and that i need medical proof. i am now waiting for an email back that will possibly say they will no longer need me. i mean, great timing. i'm only working another 2 more weeks... and i feel like everything between my manager and i are going downhill. everything i do seems to be a problem lately. i call in sick- she gives me speeches about how wrong that is... and now i can't take one day off. i'm not changing my plane ticket. i'm going to paris and if they want to fire me during my last 2 weeks, fine. it's their loss. i don't get paid enough to be treated like this.

so, we'll see what happens. see you soon, france!

hooters is right outside the cafe!