family

sometimes i am envious of certain families.... especially the ones with no divorce. that's hard to come by these days, and i am sure even those who aren't divorced have issues and at times may wish they were. i don't know, really. but my family is so scattered. it's ridiculous. it seems maybe that most of us these days are in good 'ol floriduh(but that won't last for much longer.) there was a time where my oldest brother leif was in califorinia(still is), my 30 year old brother iam was in colorado, my sister mani was in colorado, and my dad was in colorado/canada/ some islands/and australia. my mom has always stayed here. same with my youngest brother eruch. now... we're all here in florida, except for mani who has lived in colorado for 10 years, and leif whose been in california(and abroad)for over 13 or so. i see my dad every once and a while, who has the best mother... she is 95 and we all try to see her as much as possible. and i like to say i see my mom enough, but i don't. (that has to do with me not having a car) there have been some discrepancies lately between the heads. i mean, it's not new to any of us. when my mom and dad got divorced there were never-ending problems. then when my dad got out of prison they somehow managed to get along and work together for 4 years. then that stopped working out how it should about a year ago, and now they're not so good at this moment in time.

having dinner parties hasn't felt like much of a success lately. i think we're all at fault, though. i try to keep this family together. planning get-togethers.... and i'm sick of the moods and the bullshit that comes along wth it. i know everyone loses ground and really lets too much time pass and then things feel uncomfortable. so now when we have dinner parties, we have to separately invite the father and the mother. lame. i'm hoping that'll pass once again and we can all get together and celebrate our big gorgeous family. the other nite we had a pot luck at my moms. my mom cooked some amazing chicken and potatoes. matt and i made our favorite orzo and arugula salad along with some vegetables and homemade dip. it would've been nice to have mani and leif there, but hey, we're used to it. i think that there is so much to be forgiven for... and i think many of us hold a lot of resentment that we have trouble coming forth with about our dad. it's really troubling at times. internally.

enough of that. i just want us to all to get along, to love eachother, and just live on a massive peice of land in the middle of the best place in the world. we're workin' on it. (maybe.)

playing dominoes with nanny. she likes to kick our asses.

pot luck at moms.

really terrible photo. sorry guys.

dessert. major fruit on top of icecream.

manija was their in spirit. cutest child EVAR.